November 30, 2000 - Wednesday

It's 7:18 am. I've been up for an hour. You know what they say. Early to bed and early to rise; makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise. But I'm not a man. But anywhose. Yes, that's my new favorite phrase, apparently. "Anywho" or "Anywhose." It's actually "anywho" but I'm afraid people will look at it and just think I made a typo, so I must be more explicit.

Yesterday was a pretty good day. We had our presentation in my EdEA 360. I don't think we did too well, but the rap music video Tritia, Wendy, and I made kicked ass. It was hilarious, and lots of fun, and I think we did really well on it. Yeah, so if you guys, or any other group members happen to read this--WOOHOO! We rock!

Anyway, that got me thinking. Do I really actually like ICS? I think I would enjoy myself a lot more if I do something that's performance based, because I really enjoy it. And I really like DDR too, I mean, it's lots of fun, but I guess what I really like more is crowds gathering and watching and going "Holy s***, damn, look at what she can do." I mean, I guess everyone likes that feeling, but it's just--I'm wondering whether a more performance-based career, or at least, major, wouldn't make me happier.

And I wanna thank Tritia for her comment in class. It kind of put a positive on my whole day. She said that I was all encouraging and trying to keep everyone going and be positive as everyone was getting frustrated during the video. I'd never seen myself in that role before, and I want to thank her for saying it because it kind of opened up a new image of myself. And you know, what you think you are is what you become, so yes, thank you, Tritia.

Finally, I went back to KOKUA today because they left a message on my cell saying I had to pick up my pay stubs. I talked to my supervisors and stuff, and I might be going back to work Christmas break. Hopefully, I'm getting my act back together, gonna stop flunking school, and all will be good by 2001. 2001! The start of the new millenium.

Speaking of New Year's, I'm reminded of Yang's resolution this past year. To be more independent. I had thought, geez, I would never want to to do that, but I'm wondering whether it wouldn't be healthier if I were more emotionally independent. If I couldn't derive my strength from within, rather than depending on everyone else. No, I think the "stop failing school" thing would be a better resolution.